The Gravity BuBBle...

 She was getting the message to release and let go 

of all that no longer served her highest good. 

And with that thought she got scared. Anxious. Resistant. 

She didn't want to let go of things because she felt afraid 

that she would be left alone and in a void of nothingness. 

She didn't want to not be seen. 

If even being seen as horrible was all she could concoct.

She made sure to give it her 110% best effort.

She had become the best worst version of herself that 

she could ever imagine. 

She was proud of herself. 

And that's when it broke. 

The bubble of pride she was living in. 

Giving herself over to creating the best worst version of herself

was done with. 

There was nothing more that she could create with that version 

of herself. 

And so now, there she sat alone in the Unknown... 

In that void of nothingness that she had been trying to 

avoid for so long. 

And she realized that it really wasn't that scary. 

It was actually a place to take a rest and breathe. 

And then she called on God and asked him to reconnect her.

To connect her to the truth of who he made her. 

And in reconnecting to her true self, first she had to 

Dig up all her past patterns. 

They needed to be spotted, recognized as weeds, 

acknowledged that they could look pretty even though they were weeds, 

and then the decision would have to be made to finally uproot 

them because they were sucking away all the nutrients from her 

growing into who she truly came here to express. 

So she sat back and just re-evaluated her life and her habits. 

She began to see a lot of repeating of old family patterns in 

herself. 

The fear of God not being there to guide her on this earth,

was the 

biggest fear

 of all that she carried forward from her family roots.

 

She realized now, that all that she had allowed herself to run from or believe

that came from the family line, the family roots, was all FEAR based. 

And to escape fear was never the answer. 

It took her 44 years to realize that the only way to heal her own life. 

Her own faulty patterns, was indeed not to

Escape thru over indulgence in food, drink, drugs, cleaning, working, etc.

Resistance thru rage, hate and anger at all the world

Withdrawal thru isolation and solitudes into depression of emotions

Distractions thru fantasy illusions of movies, books, or gadgets.

Judgments of people, cultures, and traditions... 

or even

Destruction of self or of others because of paranoia and suspicions.

She learned finally that...

The true demise of fear was to actually face it! 

See it in it's entirety! 

To accept it as real and for what it was capable of. 

The fact that FEAR really was always just her own Shadows. 

Her own inner demons that were stuck inside her because she didn't

know how to greet them when they came to her.

The one other thing that she had finally learned was that 

to FEEL from the heart was the MOST IMPORTANT weapon

when it came to coming head to head with fear. 

Why?

Because the heart is all LOVE. 

And where there is LOVE, fear can not thrive. 

So the choice of how to greet the fears was always up to her.

 Every time she came upon a demon fear such as;

Fear of losing her family. 

Fear of losing respect.

Fear of being left all alone... 

Fear of not being heard.

Fear of not being important. 

Fear of not being right.

Fear of not being lovable or loving enough.

All of these fears when they came to her seemed so big! 

And because she didn't know how to greet them correctly because of 

a false belief in the root of her family tree being connected to a weed.

Every time she would handle them with a fight instead of LIGHT! 

And this is what had lead her to the patterns that now seemed 

to keep her in a spin cycle of repeats.

It was time to stop and see them clearly. . 

It was time to stop and smell the roses and realize that if they stink

they were never really roses... and that she had put on 

rose colored glasses her whole life wanting to see the weeds

as something more then what they truly were. 

A false belief....

And so... today, she had come to that message of

The time to release...

All of these weeds of fear had to First be seen and accepted as not working... 

She had a garden before her full of them. 

It looked so beautiful, yet smelled so bad. 

It was time to recognize them as weeds and not flowers!

And it was time to uproot them all with the knowing 

that the love she truly felt in her heart was always the way forward. 

And if fear should ever arise, when making decisions.. 

She knew that she could trust God and her true hearts feelings 

to guide her through every step of her life. Why?

Because even if sometimes her fearful Ego's feelings should allow her to 

experience something not so pleasant and aligned with her true self,

the unpleasant consequence would only serve to realign her with 

her highest truth, which was love for herself first and then love for others! 

And this is where she felt the most Joy, Peace, and Love in her. 

And so this is where she began to Garden her life back to health!