Wednesday, February 22, 2023

I NeeD Me B4 I NeeD U








She sat at the coffee house waiting for the time to pass. 

It was chilly out and was only going to get colder by moonlight.

So she figured why not warm up while businesses were open. 

Then once they all closed, then she would have to face the 

winter chill with only a metal exterior and 6 windows to 

keep her warm.. 


Who was she kidding? 

She very well knew she had the heater just incase

she absolutely needed to heat up with more then what a beer, 

 winter clothes, and several layers of thick blankets

could provide.

She really wasn't worried at all. 

She was however playing the waiting game though. 

And sometimes, waiting took a lot of strength... 

And she knew that behind strength really was the power of faith.

And faith came from spirituality.

 Which she knew matter of factly that she had more that 100% of..

She practiced walking into her fears on the daily

 and that was exactly what faith and spirituality really were all about

However, what she needed to work on though, was her staying power. 

Even though, staying required facing a fear, it was never about

fear when it came to 'staying' for her. 

So then what was it?

This is what she really had to ponder about her life thus far.

 And so she asked herself,

Why was she always doing things in her life that she really didn't

even enjoy?

To the point that she always had to vacate it? 



Which of course, made her appear as a flake.

A snow flake...

Airhead?

Naive?

Childish?

Why did she want to continue this route? 

Or did she? 

Maybe that is why she was here.

In her favorite place. 

In her favorite season. 

In her favorite coffee house blogging away as she always loved to. 

Maybe this time she was finally taking that step to do what she 

truly loved. 

And that was to be her. 

Her true authentic self. 

Even if she didn't know where it was going to end up. 

She knew it couldn't be bad for her again

 especially if she was going to go from her self love and heart this time.


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